Blogging Vacation..

I have decided to take break.. from blogging...

I know larr...
I already like seldom update with entries which are worth reading...Sorwieee!!

But I blame it on the lack of inspiration...
Maybe a lack of interesting encounters/experiences in my recent days...
But most of the time... the brain hasn't been producing provoking thoughts to share with the world...
(as if many read this lei?? ;p)

I started this blog in Nov last year as a channel for my numerous rhetorical thoughts...
I felt like I wasn't heard enough.. my voice not loud enough...
And also maybe cos I was kinda emotionally numb going thru some transitions in life...?

It's not like I lost interest in blogging...
I still enjoy it very much.. (when I've got something interesting worked out in my head)...
But just that I dun wanna do it for the sake of doing it..
I like to produce posts of Quality... ;D

I just need some time...

To accumulate more funny, random, silly thoughts in my head... (things like Group Dynamics, Men n their underwear preference, Older men with Pubescent girls, Good Boys Vs Bad Boys, etc)

To engage in thought provoking, mind exercising conversations n bring them to you...

To refine n redefine my take on Love n The One, something which has been silently morphing while I stopped looking n is getting weee bit confusing...

To restructure my life... which is kinda caught between things old n new...
it's ideal to start afresh...
but it tears me apart the thought of having to give up the past..
After all, I'm an incredibly sentimental creature...
... an emotional karang guni...

is it possible to balance things out?
To keep an optimistic outlook of the future yet hold on to memories of a wunderful past?

Really? You can't have the best of ALL worlds?
How bout Both worlds?

Stop telling me that I can't have it all..
Because I know n seen people who have...;p
All I'm asking for is having MOST of it...

Yeah Yeah... I'm greedy...materialistic...unrealistic...

In short...
The mind needs quiet time...
To rejuvenate.

I promise I'll return..
Bigger, better, happier.. hee heee

And hopefully by then...
I've got a new lappie!!
And have managed to procure a COPY of photoshop for Mac...
hee hee...

But before I go...
Can I please share this passage with you...

"You could be happy and I won't know
but you weren't the day I watched you go,
and all the things I wished I had not said
are played on lips til it's madness in my head.
Is it too late to remind you how we were
but not our last days of silence, screaming, blur.
Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door.

You could be happy, I hope you are,
You made me happier than i'd been by far.
Somehow everything I own smells of you
and for the tiniest moment it's all not true.
Do the things that you always wanted to
without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do
More than anything I want to see you go
take a glorious bite out of the whole world...."

Is this part of a song anyone knows?
Cos it made me cry over n over until dawn...
It still makes me sad n reminesce
of times good, bad esp when you were scarce...
I want to move on but I'm so so scared
of letting go all that we've shared... :_(
Oh how I wish in other dimensions of backward time
both you n me are having the time of our lives...

Overhyped, Overpriced n Undermined..

I was on leave all week long...n I loved it!! :)

It helped of cos that he accompanied me whatever time he had...
To my mani n pedi session..
To dinner with my friends..
To party...
To birthday dinner for mommy n lil sis...

Anyhoo...
We bought Lana chocolate cake for Mommy n Sista...
It's supposed to be the mother of all chocolate cakes...
And the last time i had one was for my 21st bday!!

I remembered it...
the choc layer was generous n gooey...
the sponge inside was moist n melts in your mouth..
More choc mousse inside....
Abso-fucking-lutely heavenly...
Mommy remembered it as well from then...

But when we cut the cake today....
And each family member hastily shoved the first mouthful in anticipation...
there was........

Silence...


Not like having orgasm-cos-the-cake-freaking-nice silence but i-look-at-you-you-look-back-at-me-to-confirm-b4-reacting silence...

Lana standard drop liao!!!
Haha!!
Now the sponge is so dry.. like ordinary cake...
Even Sara Lee has more moist insides lor..
Overhyped!!!
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My 10 year old sis wanted a Tamagotchi Version3.0...
And it freaking cost me S$29.95...

Dun ask me wat difference is there from the version first released eons ago..
The version that I played with..

Maybe some added online features n an infra red port...

I jus think that it is Overpriced!! >;0
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However.. if you're thinking of a nice place to bring your parents or grandparents or whole family to a nice Chinese dinner...
Go to Pearl River Restaurant @ 3rd floor Suntec City Convention Centre..
S$30 +++ per pax n it's ala carte buffet...

The menu was exhaustive n desserts are buffet style where you help yrself at any point during yr meal...
And if you bring a party of 5 pax or more... you get a whole Peking duck n a mini Buddha Jump over the Wall each...
And 100grams of fresh prawns per pax!!

Really really good!!!
Value for $$ I say!! And I'm hardly a fan of Chinese food... ;p
Better than any international buffets at hotels!!
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For people with hairy faces....

Me....

got hairy forehead n teeny bit of moustasche(forgot how to spwell n too lazee to check my dic)

Must go threading at Little India!!
Just the stretch behind Tekka Market..
Buffalo Road it's called...
Eyebrows only $5, forehead/upper lip only $3..

And they offer cheap mani n pedi service as well... the classic service la...
Only diff is they dun use branded nail polish like OPI.. jus regular Color club (which i never hear b4 also

Henna hair dye, Auveyurdic massage services... indian indian things lar!!
I think it's really cool though.. ;)

At first was recommended to this place called Rupini's..
But after a near-car accident n going round Little India twice... I found that Rupini's close on Sundays... (imagine my rage n anger..)

Then I tot "wat the heck, already here.."
So I walked to the beauty salon next door which offered same services n same prices...

Good!! Must try! :)
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Finally, thou shalt not underestimate the power of PMS moodswings...

Firstly.. need to get this off my chest..
You know how MANY females do this...

A: "Aiyah sian ahhhh... PMS!!"
me: wah... akan datang ah... when you expecting your 'da yi ma'?"

A: Today 1st day man....!! Back damn pain!!

Okie...ARgh
PMS stands for PRE menstrual syndrome...
n PRE stands for BEFORE...
BEFORE your period starts....
it does not mean the having of your period....period.

Wah Liao...

Okie.. now that is outta the way...

I would like to share my interpretation of the onslaught of PMS...
I think hor.. that PMS is basically an excuse to blame your boyfriend (or girlfriend?!?) for anything n everything...
jus for that 3-7days before your period starts...

The boys prob cheering right now as I say this n the other girls are shaking their heads n going "girl you outta yr mind or wat to divulge this heavenly secret?"

But by saying this, I dun mean that the boys r let off easily...
Yes, we girls DO experience terrible depressive fits n moodswings...
Mine oscillates from extremes... by the half hour...
And everything tiny or even slightly annoying becomes amplified like 10000000%...

But when I was single for the first time in my life( since dateable age man ) during the first quarter of the year...
My monthly PMS miraculously disappeared...
the depression sessions occur much less.. n sleep was like the antibiotic for everything!!

Then now I got nice nice boyfriend around me treating me like princess...
The PMS creeping slowly but surely back again, bringing the tyrant outta me once again...
heh heheh *eVil smirk*


Maybe men are the problem...
But seriously...
even if it IS somewhat an excuse for us to bully you... you still must grit yr teeth n handle us properly hor... no matter how whiny, grouchy n difficult we get...
Cos at the end of the day... your patience is how we measure your love for us...
;D

Would you want a stable man to hold you down?

At first i tot Yes...
Then I tot No...
Then I realised that my fear of commitment n reluctance to let my emotions take over is actually all an act of self-defence...

then now i think.... maybe .. Yes... :)

Ray brought me to watch Cabaret, the musical by the Toy Factory Ensemble which stars Emma Yong n Fei Xiang.
And I got this question from the I.S mag lar..
They were interviewing Emma Yong's character, the supposingly decadent, debaucherous chanteuse working in THE cabaret called the Kit Kat Klub...

I say "supposingly" cos I din find the character of Sally Bowles played up in that way enough...
Yes Emma Yong is spectacular in Sin standards... but somehow the stage presence was not really there lei...

Though Fei Xiang did a damn good job of being the host of the show n The Cabaret itself...
And he's darn good looking too!


Especially like the opening act, where the cabaret girls were intro-ed...
Raunchy n sexy!! Just the way I likey!! ;D
And Ray says that his voice damn MAN... I agree!!

So anyway... Emma Yong's character, Sally, falls in love with this quiet n nice guy; an American writer, Cliff Bradshaw, who came to Berlin in search of inspiration (can't remember actor's name)...
abit like Moulin Rouge style...
But she chose not to leave with Cliff n to focus on her 'career' in Kit Kat Klub instead...
Becos she doesn't want to be held down...

My first time watching a big time local production...
Thought the storyline pretty standard, ala Moulin Rouge as I had said...
But still delightful!!
Now I still have the pineapple song ringing in my head...;p
And the costumes were fabulous as well!
Mind you Fredrick Lee was the costume designer... no wonder...

I give it a 4 outta 5!! ;D
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As for going back to the question...

Yes, I think i'm ready to be held down by somebody..
Somebody who loves me for who I m, someone who's crazy bout me..
Someone's who close to convincing me in a short 3.5 months...

How can one stay resilient n not cave when they do such sweet things to you?

Remember my fave mango mushies from Hkg?

He bought me brunch before my flight to Bombay...
Cuddled n napped w me before my evening reporting time though he hates napping cos he thinks sleeping is a waste of time...
And slipped this into my bag when I was not looking...
And whispered in my ear that there was something for me... open it when I reached the airport...

Opened the plastic bag rightaway while Daddy's car was still at the curb...
Baby packed mango mushies for me!!

Big smile on my face... :)))
His elves really did him the favour it seems!!

Woah....
Nice n cold... cos I put dry ice round it during the flight!
Could only get at it when I'd checked into hotel...
Thank you Baby!!
Sweet rewards after a hard flight... :)

Coming to 4 months since we met...
Some might say "Yeah but it's only 4 months! Still honey moon period!!"

But I think only the people in the relationship itself knows the intensity of the emotions, n the extent of that intensity of emotions... heh...

The last time I Ray-ranted was a long time ago...
So here goes...
Well, I used to believe in that "There's someone for everyone out there...that someone special"
Then I lost faith n did not know where I was heading for a while..
I even asked myself if I would become gay if I found a suitable partner..

I was fully convinced that I would end up a 40 yr old spinster cos I'm truly a man-tyrant- hard to please, hard to keep, hard to convince, JUST DAMN BLARDEE HARD TO LOVE... *scowl*

My rubber dildo was my fave bed partner.. (heh heh heh)
I always sterotyped men as this blah blah n that blah blah...

Then along came someone who tells me "Pls dun compromise for me, let me compromise instead becos I can do so..."
Someone who never complains to me bout me...
Someone who wants to outfuss, outlove, outcare, outprovide, outpamper anyone else when it comes to me..
Someone who actually acts on what I say i dun like... super quickly somemore... ;D
Someone who actually makes me wonder if I'm a good enough/sweet enough gf to!!

Seems like there's hope for people like me too!!
Hmmm...
For the loveless n lovelorn... hang in there k..
Cos there's bound to be someone!! :D
I promise!