the phone is there... thrown back there...
the messages r in there....
N i dun wanna read them.
Not now..
Maybe later...
You know how u'll always get this funny feeling...
bout whether it's right or not right...
Is it true that if it's right, nothing's supposed to go wrong?
That u won't feel shitty this way?
Later, later then i will deal with it......
Only when i got to 27 i realised i've made myself an emotional drawer...
where i can keep my feelings in for a while longer before i lose control.
Monday, December 08, 2008
swaying...
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Nic's 21st bday n attending my first Malay wedding...
Dunno why..
kinda not in the mood to update at the moment...
Why is it tat sometimes when u dun ask for anything, it still feels like u're asking for too much??
Sigh*
It makes me feel like i'm not doing enough.......
i mean.. hw does one help when one does not have the obvious solution???
Anyway, cos i will be making my way to New Delhi tonight... Yes India...
where all is not safe at all n im starting to get paranoid...
(all i want is to be able to come home safe by the 10th n enjoy my off days n Zoukout after...)
I'm here to say i love u all n the weekend was a blast! :)
*huggies*
First up.. Nic's 21st bday bash Nite #1 at Helipad.
I was damn late n she was drunk like all birthday girls by then...
She was bundled home n we went down to Movida ...
Me n Von
Zoukout coming le!!! whoop!
After 3 beers i woke up from my sleepy stupor...but i drink water after tt lor!! keke
N after not sleeping for close to 24 hours n a very heavy supper at Spize after...
I got to making a card thing for Nic at 6 in the morning...
but at 6 in the morning... where got bookstore open???
Missed the malay segment of Adi n Co's cos was on flight
The mutton briyani was fab.
the prawns were Huge-ass man n sweet.
Or some lotus flower thing lar.
Where the couple sits there n let pple admire n take pics with like they r king n queen for the day.
Take picture we did!!Note the boo boo at the bottom.
It's nic's 21st!! Not the gf's!
Da Paolo's boo boo!
Emergency remedy b4 bday girl arrived was to take the bottom off the menu!!
Yeeheee!!Y so matchy matchy our faces!
It's a first!!!
A Chanel 2.55 quilted cake can!!!
*squeals*
One's 21st can't get any better. :)
Our adaptation of Da Vinci's Last Supper...
Hehe~LOL
Ample good food n drinks.
Good friends. Many laughs...
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The fat hamster so irritating yet cute looking! wahahahha!
wanna squash him in the palm of my hand n go 'squish squish!!"
Evil!
hokie!!! next up is Zoukout pics!!
bikini diet is not holding up well though i did put in 3 hrs in the gym on wednesday...
zzzzzz.....
over n out!
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Wednesday, December 03, 2008
Say I Love You everyday...
My family got back today from their holiday to Hainan Island...
Whole truckload of them, aunties n uncles n cousins all including my parents n sistas...
I jus got back from a jakarta nitestop n was kinda miffed when i had to trek all over the airport after walking back from jkt to join them at the staff canteen in T2 for a late lunch session...
In the car later updating my news-craved daddy on the recent happenings in bkk airport, the mumbai bombings n how the girl who was killed was actually from MGS as well n only 1 year my senior n all that...
I never knew her personally but am sure i've seen her playing in those netball matches before....
I felt guilty for briefly showing my temper earlier cos i was hot n bothered.
I suddenly felt relief that my family were all back by my side.
Even though i will never have the house to myself over the weekend for a long time, i wish they dun go away all together at once without me for a long time again.
I remembered that i had forgotten to tell them all i love them when they left for their holiday last week.
When I watched the Mumbai shootings unfold on CNN while in Shanghai last week, only 10 ppl were reported dead....
When i checked out the next morning, only 15 reported dead.
But when i got home... n only got access to newspapers 36 hours later... the whole 188 ppl dead n 1 of them a Singaporean n how the entire event was India's 911 was kinda overwhelming.
If i'm not wrong... the company used to put us up at the Taj in Mumbai for a really short period of time...
I'm going to Delhi next week...
N for those who's been to India... u will know tt the security there is like atrocious one lor...
The fucking metal detector machine tt they make ppl walk thru is like useless one... cos you go 'beep' n they still go 'Okay' . -___-"
The entrances to the airport r crowded like f n aiyah watever security measures they put up jus look like nonsense lar.
I read all these newspaper reports on the poor girl n though they starting to repeat telecast the same things in each n every article...
i can't help but imagine how it will feel if suddenly my dearly beloveds r taken away from me.
How will i react?
How will it feel??
It's all starting to hit really close to home n u wonder when one really feels safe anymore.
I sat in my room in Jakarta the nite before watching more updates on BBC on the Mumbai bombings n imagined wat should i do if the hotel i stayed in got raided...
- Wat the hell can i use as a weapon to protect myself? Shoe horn??? Iron??? knn~
- Errr.... should i change outta my PJs if got time??
- Nabei, if they start raiding rooms, wat furniture should i pile against my door first??? I stared at the fuckin big wooden desk n tv stand n wonder if i've enough strength to singlehandedly move them across the room...
- Handphone better keep fully charged from now on lor, (after hearing account from some spiritual group leader on BBC) then i faster go charge my phone at tt moment even though it's only 1 bar down...
Crazy thoughts running thru my mind.....
Clearly I'm over imaginative n over thinking once again...
But i can't help it! ;D
But one thing's for sure..........
I wanna tell my parents/sisters n boyfriend that i love them every time b4 i leave home base....
N that i love them all the time.
No arguments n cold wars before my flights....
Give my mom n dad a peck on the cheek as i used to do all the time even until uni days, whenever i get outta the car...
N remember to tell my close friends they make me laugh n i need them around to stay happy...
Life's too unpredictable to take things/ppl round u for granted...
We all know this but we r all still guilty of it.
So wat r u waiting for?!?!
Start saying "I love you" everyday.
:)
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Friday, November 28, 2008
The ultimate Get-together @ Cicada n Doggie Mud Spa
It's all in my head...
weddings weddings n weddings...
Not realising tt it's real....
Until the end of the night when they freakin' cut the cake n gave it out n we were like
"Woah it's real one lei!!!"
huh huh huh?!?!?
n how many times do we actually get to see the top 2 tiers being taken out n the bottom getting cut!
we were like "oops!! dun eat the icing pple!! we poked it!!" ;p
The original old Domies...Look we can run an entire Saturday madcap dinner service liao
Supervisors n chefs n solid cashiers n baristas n food, drink n station runners.
The memories of all my Christmases n Valentine's days spent at werk.
The supers have moved on to be managers...
The rest of us have just... moved on......
to full time jobs, full time things, marriage... etc...
No more standing next to sandwich/main course counters haggling with the chefs on how each customers want their special orders... *giggle*
No more bugging the harrassed cashiers on long waiting bills
No more cowering behind the bar counter asking for new ice creams when the old ones have melted..
No more slinking behind kitchens stealing just-washed water glasses...
No more sneaking just sliced roasted beef n freshly peeled king prawns or forzen tiramisus...
No more writing "Special pizza, special, pie, special pasta, Soup of the Day, Special dessert, Brew of the Day" on the specials board n having to memorise them n having Adi traumatise u during briefing. hee hee
Life has become a big usual Blah since school days ended n real working-for-money-life had began...
But it's still a big 'wheee!"..................................................................................................................
March in music, sabo games planning, itinierary for the day, traditional customs, colour of dresses....
Personally, i'm super excited...
Pictures of J n WW's wedding which i failed to attend cos of many circumstances already in FB...
N it's all white n pretty n I'm actually jealous! ;D
Sigh.. i wanna pinch myself to remind myself of reality. ;p
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Sometime last week...
Doggie mud spa!!
"grrr woof"
Wait.. i move abit aside so the bubbles dun go straight up my arse..."
"ooooooSaaahhhh"
We put some on our hands too n it felt soooo smooth after ....
N smells good too!!
These loving owners sent both their big doggies for spa treatment tt day...
Per dog SGD 80 only lor!!
Wat u waiting for ?!?! Animal Resort! ;D
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Tuesday, November 25, 2008
End of Strike n Amanda's 'Dua Seh' 24th
Sorry bout that people...
Left u without a Part 2 n any explanation...
But i'm back.. with a slew of events to report on...
First up...
Amanda's dua seh 25th bday at Dragonfly tonight..
Dodo endured a crazy full load Shitney flight back to Sg n then rush down to DF with full make up n sticky hair for the silly girl...
who ended up drunk n ... inevitably... crying since she jus suffered a recent break up.
We flygirls jus have such tragic love lives..
Men think that flygirls R
1) good to cheat on cos we're always not in town
2) good to cheat cos we have fat bank accounts..... when in fact we r glorified 3-in-1 toilet cleaners, concierge services, n manservants........
Next time when u fucking think of cheating on a flygirl, think of cheating on individual toilet cleaners, concierge personnels n manservants n in the same way yr bad karma will be triple fold!!! che$#^BWy83E*
Check out the present tt me n Sponge got her...
Cos she doesn't have a man now...
;D
Oh gosh!!!!
I'd prefer a real man anytime..
In the mean time...
it's my Ah Beng... *winkZ* ;p
Wah.... admire...
If me sure die by BEFORE midnight...
tt's if i dun suffocate myself by cake or die by vodka.... ;D
like............
- Slipping n falling down twice on the dancefloor in front of everyone... in a short dress no less..
- Stumble-dancing...
And when she confirm gone...
...Started crying.......
n made out with some cheap friend-of-friend who took advantage of situation....
What made things worse was...
Stupid Sponge got drunk also.. KNN..
Two fellow chubby girlfriends getting drunk on 1 night... n 1 chubby non-drunk friend is not strong enough to hold both them down lor!! -___-
Sponge even pushed this skinny friend-of-friend once n the poor girl flew into the sofa into me n almost broke her ankle.
Not to mention i was forced to be in the same cubicle as someone who took a dump in front of me. (Guess who... who's the more unglam of the two.. -___-)
So hazardous r chubby people like us.... ;p
So while they were drunk n drunk dancing n i was waiting for her boyfriend to come pick both them up.... i sat n watched them do silly things..
Not very attractive...
i vow never to be drunk n attempt to dance..
Oh sheeeshhhhh~
Reminds me of meself when younger...
All idealistic about Love n expecting fairy tales to happen...
sighhhh..
So wat can i say.......
esp bout the married teacher man....
FUCKING MEN!
Lessons i learnt tonight...
1) There will always be men out there preying on drunk girls... remotely attractive or not.
n it took me 27 years to really see the ugly truth..
Pls note that these men look extremely decent... could be married...otherwise morally upright or watever shit... but men R men n when alcohol takes over their other head, they r all FULL of SHIT.
only a small minority r probably otherwise... but do not take for granted tt yr man might be part of the minority.
2) U r nobody when u have no girlfriends who pull u back when u run around drunk, hold yr hair back when u puke, let u burn accidentally n drunkenly in the skirt n thigh with yr stupid cigarette, let u nag incessantly bout some stupid SMS yr ex sent u... hug u when u cry.... all when they r either fucking shag from work... or getting drunk themselves...
3) Always know where yr girlfriends stay, like can recite their addresses instead of just knowing how to drive them back... in case of such drunken emergencies n u r stuck waiting for some unreliable fuck buddy of theirs to come pick them up... grrrr..
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Okie im developing a monster sore throat n i've got a big night morrow for one my Dome Darling associate's wedding dinner at Cicada morrow evening...
OPEN BAR honey!!! whoop!
more photos on Facebook n also on morrow night.
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Monday, November 17, 2008
Dodo Strike
dun call me sms me unless u have something nice to say
im going on a strike...
im upset beyond redemption.
leave me alone!
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The answer is No.
The answer is No to taking pple's flight for MY off days...
(except for Jer's gf who took my Shanghai. for the 12th n 13th Dec off.
Kindness do begets kindness n I'm grateful. i owe u n yr gf 2 off days k J tweets? ;)
the workings of karma is almighty n my Bkk flight today is tough plus being told off by Chief for not asking some idiot to switch off his Blackberry.
KNN all u who own a cb Blackberry pls Fucking switch off yr apparatus when cheebywe doors r closed)
The answer is also NO to the perennial question of "To Stick or not to Stick".
No! Not only because when u lose yr head n expect unspoken things to be done to u n then settle all things spoken is not Shiok~
But also cos u can't help thinking tt time spent with yr friends makes u happier n less expectant...
I'm getting my head back becos of all the bad lessons i've learnt in Love.
Which is Lesson #706
NEVER have expectations..
-a) lesson will hurt u
-b) never expect behaviours of reciprocations becos of wat u do thru-out the process
-c) never lose yr head n imagine snapshots of bliss...
Truth is......
Reality of sleepiness n monday blues won't satiate yr romantic fantasies...
Shut up all u who ask me wat is a rship without expectations
It's is called a Pessimistic n 'dunno go where 'r-ship....
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I have always enjoyed musicals n Broadway plays cos of the entire experience...
of cos after that i become broke..
But thats the bohemian lifestyle i'm so used to... ;p
n
" Only for now..."
Bad days r terminal for the times when u lose yr direction n wonder wat the hell you r doing...
but bad days r temporary as long as as u earn yr keep n do not depend on others...IN yr job.
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Thank you Adi for yr brilliant bottle of Brunello...
it is inspiring n i only finished it tonight
Intoxicating piece of yum yum...
i'm going to rape yr chiller come xmas boxing day
n i'm looking forward to 25th nov... ;D
tattaalalalala!!!
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Friday, November 14, 2008
To Stick or not to Stick... that is the question... ;p
M back home!!
N have got the home to myself til Sunday as family has gone up to Ipoh for God Bro's wedding...
Kinda regret giving away my off day on Sunday to help this other flygirl out by doing her Bkk turn.
Else it will be another weekend of sticking by my Ah Beng's side...
Sigh...
But i hope kindness begets kindness lar...
Speaking of sticking ... (stupid Von dun laugh *pinch*)
It's kinda strange... when u go like more than 24 hrs of not speaking to someone... it feels kinda distant....
Distance that has to be bridged on watever days i have in Sg...
Ahhh.... it's the delirious me talking again....
ZzzzZZzzzZzzzZZZz
BTW, snail mail ain't reliable anymore.
Long Story.
EEeeEEeYYyyyuuRR~ >;(
#%&&%*^&*((@@@#
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Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Time for a change...
Hello from the FRankfurt crew room..
Just got in this morning n i almost had a fit b4 the flight cos i only realised i did not bring my winter topcoat (which is kinda considered a no-go item like safety shoes n watever) like 5 mins b4 briefing started.
Would have usually not bothered n gone on with the flight but this was my first team flight n there was a checked trainer onboard (someone who like polices us).
2 panicky phonecalls to mommy at home n daddy on the way home from the airport having had just dropped me off, the problem was half settled when mommy helped to bring down my topcoat for F1 racer daddy to pick up at pitstop before coming back to airport again.
Note tt trip from airport to home n home to airport was at least 30 mins per leg. Without traffic.
it was 2224hrs, nearly 45 mins in the briefing liao n boss was still talking....
talking talking talking...
N my phone was vibrating away on 7 missed calls n i can't answer it.
it was daddy frantically trying to call me no doubt cos no waiting was allowed on the departure level.
Briefing finally ended after a gruelling 7 more mins n i dashed out to call daddy n to the departure level.
i felt so bad!!
The old man must be suffering a near cardiac arrest cos the traffic police was threatening to summon him, trying to get him to drive away cameras to take photo of him stopping there for more than god knows how long n he still STAYED PUT.
I so wanted to pepper his face with my kisses n hugs for being such a HERO, (my super dad!), if not for my stupid red lipstick.
I had THAT moment when i realised tt no one else in the world can beat The Parents.
Who never says 'no, can't do' to my requests.
No matter how ridiculous.
N with no conditions attached at all.
Sitting here, i suddenly had a recollection of when i was just 8 yrs old n in school n tot i had misplaced my precious Hello Kitty purse n called home crying from a 10 cent payphone.
Daddy suddenly appeared b4 recess time in his work attire n came to my classroom to pass it to me so tt i will have $$ to eat.
It didn't matter if he was in the middle of work, my wonderful parents never giam siap with me when it came to their time, as if it were the only thing they could offer me.
:_)
Okie, back to bitching so i won't get teary eyed n home sicky.
Stupid organisation i work for who penalises ppl with demerit points for forgetting to bring something like a winter topcoat which is part of uniform.
I'm so sick of being around other cabin crew members, some of whom r so plastic fantastic n pretentious. *shudder*
I recoil at some of the things they do n say to suck up to the superiors.
Boyfriend says maybe it's time for a change as i lamented tt this feeling have be recurring pretty often on recent flights...
Sigh...
Okie, time to go, someone else is waiting to use the pc n the only reason i'm here is to help Sponge locate her boy cos she has jus received the news tt she got 2 demerit points for going to work while still on MC.
WTF is wrong with The Company!??!?
She fainted 1 day after dinner n was brought to hospital by friends n doc gave her 2 day MC.
She was on ground for a german speaking course n missing class for 2 days would mean a recourse is required so she went back to class the 2nd day.
Then now kena 2 demerit points cos her explanation was not accepted JUST COS she WANTED to attend class.
Go also penalised, dun go also penalised...
It's the same thing as wat happened to me here.
Saying tt I'm working in a military organisation is an understatement.
We r not entitled to maternity leave, any MC days n they have the lousiest welfare ever.
Speaking to my 'team Police' today, i asked her bout how it all works...
N she replied tt we as crew should be keeping ourselves healthy, eat well, sleep well so tt we won't fall sick often.
WAT THE FUCK.
That means we r not supposed to have a life!
Cos staying healthy would mean sleeping watever time we have, eating tofu everyday n living life as in a monk or nun.
Even deities fall sick lor. Cheebywe.
I'm going back to room to blowdry my favourite furry sweater...
spilled mushroom cream sauce on it n my jeans n boots n scarf while carrying back my 'ta pao' just now n am extremely home sick n upset now cos i know mommy would have the perfect solution for the stain. ;(
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Monday, November 10, 2008
Getting Lost...
Falling asleep in my Ah Beng's arms 3 nites outta the 4 i have back in Sg is addictive...
Highly addictive...
Sometime there r moments when i feel terrified that i will lose my head n all n all things that r going great now will hit the shits...
After all... i've been known for chasing away men who loved me outta my life..
(yes laugh all u want okie Von. ;D)
i dun wan this honeymoon fewling' going away ever.....
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So to keep my loved'up head on my shoulders...
I unstick myself from the boy n maintain my social engagements..
We all need air anyway right? ;p
Supposed to be 10 of us can!?
The rest who r still flying din turn up even after 60 plus threads on Facebook can!??!
Now pple can say that fly friends r totally unreliable pple lor.
I mean, we miss friends' bday celebrations, wedding dinners, xmas parties, farewell parties, random coffee sessions...
So since flylife has taken a backseat in terms of priority for me....
I'm putting the pple in my life first.
Tt's why i gave away my lucrative Frankfurt New York flight for crappy Delhi, Shanghai n Denpasar turn to go to Zoukout with the girls!!!
Remember this???Last year!
*cross fingers*
An important wedding to attend, seeing the year out with my big love..
Im totally expecting 2008 to go out with a big bang...
N welcome 2009 with my nose up n say 'Give me all you've got!' ;p
Meanwhile, I'm gonna gross u all out with mushy Sugababes song...
til i come back from Frankfurt on Fri!!!
HEe HeeE!
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Thursday, November 06, 2008
i also want.
i also wanna be niam ti-ti me n ah beng everyday lei....
I wanna do nothing too..
no doubt fear n insecurity will creep in lar...
hee heeeee~
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Days in Dubai... so glad i'm home!!
I'm finally home!!
But i'm down with flu... ;(
Making last night's plans for Mambo void cos i was feverish n aching like mad.
Had to go to my sinsei in Chinatown for emergency treatment when i woke up in the evening cos i couldn't turn my neck to the right or sleep right!
After the last post while in Dxb still... this is wat i did the remaining 2 days n 2 nights:
- 2 hours of blindfolded hide n seek with 9 others ;D
- 1.5 hours of table soccer with 4 person on each team, push ups as penalty for losing team (double ;D)
- raiding the rooms of 4 others who refused to join us..
- used the mighty washing machine for the first time n uniform almost spin til disintegrated if not for the kind intervention of DC's online home ec advises
- cooked myself another 3 meals n passed the egg test
- watched Wanted n 21 on DVD in the room
- drank tankloads of iced coffee (there's this neat contraption of a coffee machine in the room lar! can't resist! ;p)
- kena fever n worked back with fever for all of 10-11 hrs ;( (2 hr delay somemore. knn)
No pics of the egg-citing night in the crew room though...
Well.. u know wat they say bout us members of the Mile High Club.. *winks*
hahahah yeah rite... ;D
No lar! Never bring camera down cos din expect the crew to be so spontaneous n fun!
It's been 2 yrs plus since the last time i played in-room hide n seek u know!
i think the next time i ever have a chalet activity or house party must suggest this game!
i dunno why my non crew frenz always diss it as childish but it's damn fun can!
U'd never know there will be places to hide in a plain living room until u see some on top of a fridge, a microwave oven, top shelf of a wardrobe, underneath the sofa cushion, underneath the soccer table, posing as a lamp post, slinking behind the flat screen tv............ *giggles*
After catch liao, u have pple hugging the catchee n trying to confuse u with multiple heads, hairy arms n chest n polo tshirt collars n watever while the catcher tries to guess the identity of catchee!
Hilarious!
And all u need is a room n a pair of eyeshades n a bunch of bored pple!
N for the record...
my egg test n culinary skills...
Whooppee!! shouldn't have added oil.. oops
u won't believe this but i used (eeps, dun laugh) instant coffee!
I was looking around the bare kitchen helplessly after adding oil n chopped up garlic n onions for something to flavour the chicken n saw the instant Nescafe coffee sachets n tot "haR! y not?"
It turned out okie!! Mommy's gonna be proud to know tt i cut out salt in my food! yeehee!
Waah!! Much better!
I'm so proud of meself!!
My last bit of chicken breast..
This time i added tea leaves too.. WAhahahha!!!~ ;D
N defrosted it properly...
N cooked it over lower heat.. ;p
I realised tt one has to be patient while cooking...
instead of jus wanting food to be cooked...
otherwise stuff gets burnt on outside n stays uncooked inside!
Applies to barbeques too!! Why pple like big big fires which produce cancer causing charred food!! ;p
N tamade, i get better wifi in Angsana hotel room than my room back at home.
grrrrr~
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