Medical Attention Pls...

My Mac is hospitalised for 1 week.... :_(

Renewal of Fly License...

Hey hey...
Yes it's that time of the year where I go back to school to renew my fly license again lar...

My Danny Devito-like instructor ensured that I did not fall asleep in my seat today though...
And I ain't as grouchy as the last time!! ;D

Ooohh... n I got 100% on the tests! *hou- lian*
Yeah.. it's easy peasy... but it's like driving theory tests u know...
Seems easy but can make mistakes kind?

Anyhoo... I'm in the Q at the Apple centre Orchard now...
To bring my sick Mac go see the service people lor....

Geez... -_-"

But not bad.. got free wireless here!! hee :)
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Countdown 2 days to the big talk with the Boyfriend...
I'm still iffy bout the situation....
Think I gotta write down my points so I can defend myself proper this time...
Lotsa thoughts... n still trying to stand firm...
But what do I want??

What is good for me or what my heart wants?

*look far away n stone...*

One thing's for sure though...
Think I can do without...
Like a withdrawal symptom ya know?
Things get better after you get over the "morning after" denial effect...
Oh well....

Cigarettes cigarettes cigarettes....

Shit.. which reminds me...
I left a half pack on my window sill....
Means my mama will find it when she comes in to tidy... Fu*k Shit!
: (

Demise of the Apple

My stupid Mac Book is indeed dying...
Tot it was okie once back from NY cos it din die last nite...

But it did again....
In the middle of my doing a quiz somemore...

Somehow I kinda lost faith in Apple products after getting this Mac Book...
Must b the Intel...

Grrrr...

Thought of the Day:
Why do some people want u to love them on Their terms... n not really care bout yours?
Does it make them selfish cos they want their way?
Or does it make me selfish cos I'm not getting my way n am unsatisfied??
Hmmm...

*shrug shoulders...*
Oh well...

There's Truly No Place like Home...

I'm really so glad to be home...
It's really fuckin' freezin' in Frankfurt n New York...

Puts new meaning to freezin' for me... Cos if u havent realised.. I hardly complain of winters...
And I is one person who will never ever go near thermal wear!!!!
There's jus something so unglam bout thermal under things... Bleah!~

Now I know.. winter in jan is killer!!!!


After leaving my Macbook plugged in in my NY room to charge over night... it kept auto power off on me n can't start up after awhile!!!

Then worse still.. when I plugged in my iPod... i got no response!?!?
It somehow died on me during my last 3 days...

:(

No VCDs... no Moosic.... No internet... I was truly getting bored...

And I'm happy to be home!!

:D

And found out that my iPod n lappie works totally fine at home!!! ;DD

Think they both home sick also... wahahaha~

K Danny say i very whiny these days.... *grimace...*

Well well... sorry bout that...
Now that I'm tucked up nicely in comfortable temperatures, cosied up w my MacBook on my lap (which is not auto powering off on me no more since home), n my iPod blasting my tunes on my >New~ Logitech Pod Dock playa thingy .... I'm jus happy to be home... :)

*Hug self..*
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Just feeling pretty vulnerable n ~soft... like wanna cry wanna cry like dat....

Suddenly miss the feeling of being able to Rely on someone trustworthy...

I watch like videoclips of people's wedding dinner on strangers' blogs n I start to weep...n feel all gooey...

I miss the feeling of being able to trust someone whole heartedly without being scared of getting hurt... or cheated on... or lied to...

I know myself v well... typical Piscean or not...
I need someone a gazillion times stronger than me...
To hold me together when I finally can't hold my own anymore...
To encourage me to be strong...
To never ever run out on me no matter how bad things get...
To be my rocksteady wall, steadfast n sturdy...
And I will be a mirror back to him....


How I wish I'm in one of those all consuming, loving, honest, caring n sharing relationships I used to have...
No doubts... no suspicions... no disapproval from the people around me... no negativity... No FEAR.

Shit. I'm whining again!?

I know I can be very strong...
I have done so before...
But then.... there r still times when girls like me need someone to lean on... someone who we can rely on...

Moments of weakness... nights of vulnerability... where the tears come easily n all I need is that familiar smell of his tee shirt... n his arms prepared to gather me to him like a child... n his heart all open to just feel what I am all about...

Would I be able to find Him again? ... Ever?

...

it's a rollercoaster ride..

Think I gotta just avoid more conflicts n anguish by not calling or texting unneccessarily...
no matter wat he says to me now...

I'm damn hungry n it's too cold to go out...
my eyes r sore from crying n my lips r cracked n painful from the cold n the cigarettes...

He promises that things will get better....
I take it...

But can I do it?!?

ARGH~$#%$^%^

expectations?? wat expectations??

Breaking up is a bitch....
it's bad enough that u blame yrself already...

does not help that he's blaming u too...

I already blame myself for not being the ultimate patient saint to empathise that he has a right to neglect me due to his work load...

I already blame myself for not being able to forget his lies to me n move on n be trusting again...

I already blame myself for not being resentful n just stand by his side n keep quiet cos i'm jus not that kinda girl...

And now he's blaming me for being demanding as well....

"I really think that it's true that i can never meet up to yr expectations?"

What the fuck does that mean???

the boy has no compassion at all!!!

And it makes it even harder.... so much harder to stomach....

Chasing the blues...

It started like this...

Me: "bleah bleah bleah... never call me... never text me... no longer ask wat time i touch down or text me b4 I take off/touch down.. jus sleep thru as if u dun care bleah bleah.. no longer wait for me after flights..bleah bleah... yr words so cheap.. take me for granted.. think i always there...why why why..nag nag.."

Him: (in between interrupting me to order his prata.. ;( ) "nothing has changed.. it's jus yr perception"

Me: "Everything has changed!! why can't u jus listen to me!?? pay me the due attention at least when i talking n telling u how i feel!??!"

Him: "What do u want me to DO???!"

Me: (feeling quite shit cos he jus... sigh...) "I just want u to realise yrself that things have changed... the way YOU treat me has changed...do u not wanna try anymore??? I feel like u dun treasure me that much anymore...WHY CAN't U SEE THAT at aLL>?"

Him: "I think nothing has changed."

Me: (try again n repeat myself to make him see my point...)

Him: (interrupts me n says...) "look I jus finished work okie?"

Me: (long quiet pause) "u jus fuck care..." (n slams down phone...)

And so....
After a shower... I prep my thoughts in mind for a speech....for him...
Maybe an angry one...
Maybe a vengeful one...

He called back... n I delivered my speech....

His reply?

Simply "since u have already made yr decision.... rest early"

No "pls forgive me, i really love u"....
No "dun go away from me, this is a trying period n i really need u by my side".... which will jus do the trick...

nope, the boy gave me none of that....
he just accepted my speech as if he has been wanting it too......

And I went to restless sleep n woke up the next morning feeling the crunch n the extreme shittiness setting in....

A moment of weakness n I called him....
What did he say??

Just " I'm sleepy"...
Which I interpreted as ... "What do u want now??!? I just wanna sleep... Pls dun come bug me now bout us"

Yes... WHat The FiaK~*
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And so I tiredly dragged myself around freezing cold NY so not to b alone in the room....
Checking my mobile every so often for that remorseful text....

NOthing.....

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I'm chasing the blues.... from Frankfurt to New York....

N coming back to Sin won't help me answer my question...

I'm getting external advice...
Fellow flymate recommending a clairvoyant whom I think I will run to on one of my off days when I get back...

:(

Not happy...

He's so mean to me I know... but i still keep thinking I'm doing the wrong thing...
Yes im messed up...

It IS a question I constantly ask myself...

Becos of the boy's petulance...
we sacrificed a nite of Borat n dinner while he negotiated with his boss bout his pending resignation...

I say petulance becos it was, from wat i analysed, uncalled for..
Of cos I din bend the boy's ego by telling him that...

oh well...
And so... I waited at the neighbouring bar while he was talking to the boss...

Im not bitter... or annoyed....
But while driving home alone from the boy's place... i realised it's cos i'm resigned...

When I went out with a boy 4 years older than me... (the oldest boy I ever dated seriously..)
I was hoping for stability n maturity...
understanding... consideration... (esp for my line of work)... n ultimately less work on my part..

Instead.... I signed up for a relationship of lotsa waiting for the boy to get home when I'm outstation... for peace of mind...

Me, an ultimate princess... will drive down to meet the boy at work or town for our dates...
To spend watever quality time together.. i'll drive down after a nap after flight n pick the boy up from work so we can chat on the way back...

I compromise n compromised on so much of my expectations as a girlfren...
Keeping in mind wat mommy said..
" is it something big? well, if it's not... then at the end of the day, if the man puts u first... that's good enough... why sweat so much on the little details??!"

But I often find myself asking myself..... "is it really enough??"

I have become willing to accept if my boy doesn't drive... doesn't come wait for me n pick me up from the airport...

I have become willing to accept that my boy doesn't spoil me the way I have become accustomed to n the way msot girls would like to be spoiled...

I have even become willing to accept that my boy will lie to me time n time again...
whether it involves proximity to other girls or not I'm still unsure.. but pretty suspicious at the same time...

Despite wat I wrote here. just october... I HAVE become willing to accept...
Why, I dunno...

NOT that he has since convinced me that he has put me first since...
in fact... if u had read me last week... I realised that he puts his sleep n work before me... like ten folds more...

I came back from a flight just the day before n went into a tired tantrum at 9 in the morning whilst on the way back from airport....
And he ignored all that.... n went right back to laa laa land...

this is after the whole week of hoo haa n upset which i never even demanded a detailed explanation or apology for...

Disappointed as I can be.. I still was patient uncharacteristically n lingered around...

I really dunno wat im doing anymore...
My head is so clouded..

I was sure I was on top of things for myself at the beginning of 2006...
when i made those resolutions n had those sure thoughts...

But since meeting the boy in April... I have become a messy wreck...

Von is tired for me...
my frenz are so accustomed to see me upset...
So wAt the Fuck am I doing??

Podding around...

Heh heh...
See?!?! Hear?!?

I added a pod on my blog!! ;D

And it's a RED product...

As you can see from my moosic choices... Nelly Furtado seems to be my music hero of the moment...

Go on... click on the list... u can choose what u wanna hear!!! Cool right! ;P
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Whiskey finally had a grooming session last week...

Rif decided that he was getting Paris Hilton trashy platinum blond.... instead of golden...
I just thought he had too much belly hair...

First pic
Sent by MMS to me from his(Rif's not doggie's!) Samsung phone..
No more tufty ears!!
And new choke chain collar!!

Red is definitely doggie's colour.... dun u think?? ;D

Give?!

He look better le!!!!
Full n puffy n fat Goldie like!!
Dun u think!??! SO damn cuteeeeee!!!!!!

*swoon n gush*

Seems like Goldies really need to have their hair choppy n neat to exhibit their full 'pong pong' glory...

Me?? Yeah.. I had a haircut recently n my head is 'pong pong' too cos I jus rolled out of bed, into the car n off to see doggie without brushing my hair.... *scowl*

"Hey!! What ya looking at!!"

See that laughing face?? Silly doggie... :'D
So damn freaking cute lor...

I was waiting outside the lift for his arrival.....
when the lift door opened... he saw me... stunned for a while, wide eyed, then started scrambling towards me!!!

I missed him so much!!!!

And felt a sense of peace settle in me when I sat there w my feet on his warm furry body...
Sigh.... dogs n their therapeutic nature i suppose...

Now what they looking at?!??

Cute huh??
They say doggie's take after certain characteristics of their owners...
I must say he inherited Rif's goofy side...

But Rif said he has a moody, broody side as well...
Like when it rains... he will stand at the balcony n smell the air....
Wonder whether he copied that from me...! ;D

I love my Whiskey pup!! yeee hee!

If only Trust can be Bought.. - Day 7

I disappeared to the Land of No Phone Reception of Seoul (cos i no got 3G phone mah) n am back...

I'm chilling...
I'm reformed...

Wat a married-to-a-cheated-on-her-b4-hubby fly mate said to me was true...
When a guy wants to lie... or cheat... there can be so many ways n means...
Do we girls really need to go see IT w our own eyes to believe it??

One more question.... Are white lies.... bad lies???

Or do u belong to the group of people who think that what you dunno can't hurt you??

I'm torn...
Cos I think it's only realistic to be Not able to know everything for sure...

BUT,
I still want to know FOR SURE...
See it w my own eyes...

Otherwise...I would be forever finding excuses for my guy..
Constantly in denial....

What's obvious for other people seem not to me... n the only way to remain sane is to tune those tots n also wat others think out...

(Well... Von.. only u know how I know... n how n wat i found out... so dun go publicising my secrets...
cos u will only make known women's ways to find out bout men's little white lies n put them on their guard... shhhhhhh~ ;D )

WAS it really?
REally??? REallyyyyyy!?!?!?!?!
*mock pull out hair action*

Sometimes I can really drive myself crazy..... from sleep deprived tiredness to wide awake paranoid...
Sighhhh... Oh well...

If only trust can be bought... purchased... n push those doubts away...
If only trust can be built overnight n make u believe everything he says from now on...

But I know...
There will still be moments where the doubts will creep in again n take over my senses n make me go crazy...
There will also still be moments when he gets weak n just prefer to avoid conflict.... n take the easy way out...

Sighh...
Sometimes I wish I no longer love the boy... then I can take the easy way out n not care bout whether it was the truth or not...
ARgH#*&^(&

One more question to self... :Did I forgive too easily???? -_______-"
FucccK...
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One more thing to share w desolate, heartbroken souls...
Try finding some place where there's people round u yet u feel so far far away to get some relief from yr inner noise...
(Am i sounding melo-drama?) ;p

Clarke Quay by nite...
No more noise...
Just wind... n splashing rain...

Get away n do some soul searching n thinking lor....
Above is a suggestion... great view tooo!! (if u found the place I was at!! ;p )

All I know is.. the rain started pouring when I waited for it that fateful nite n it has been cold ever since...

I'm tired... Good night!! ; )

Practice makes Perfect!.... Sense.... -Day 4

I've got to blame the US$750 ginseng powder mommy's been feeding me these days...
I super awake even though i only slept a total of 3.5 hours in the past 24 hours...

If u wanna know... Mom n Dad went to Korea for holiday n they bought back exclusive Korea government Ginseng stuff for a grand total of... S$1000...

Wah lan...

But it's really good stuff!!

;D

Day 3 Blogger was down...
Much had happened n then.. unhappened...

First.. the Boy apologised for his atrocious behaviour attributing it to work n his workaholic nature...
the ever soft hearted me was willing to accept it...

Wat can i say? I got ultra high tolerance for shit...

So wat if he din pick up my calls when I was out alone at 2 plus am in the pouring rain?
So wat if he ignored my pleas for just to hear from him??

I'm such a stupid fool...

Day4 started w a good dream...
a good feeling...

N ended w the Boy's rubbish antics again...
Uncontactable, irresponsible, incorrigible... n totally uncaring...

so wat if his text said "You will always be most important!"

It warmed me for Day3... n cooled off when he disappeared w no phone reception at the end of Day4...

If I had the heart to, I would wanna disappear from him too.. n boy.. do I have my ways...

VOn asked me... "so wat.. you love him cos he willingly squeezed thru the crowds which he hates at Zouk w u? Cos he Q-ed up for drinks for u? any normal frenz can do that! Y do u allow someone to treat u this way?""

True... so true...

but when the head is clouded... no sense gets thru...
I believe time will tell me wat to do...

that's y the heading for the post today...
Practice makes perfect...

Sense as well...

I no longer take it so hard when he does his disappearing acts...
no longer take it so hard when he knows I'm alone n still fuck care...
Boat Quay n Clarke Quay has become my new familiar territory...
And I realise Sin is a really safe place for a girl to roam about in the dead of the nite...

And I can go home totally exhausted n jus go to sleep...
And wake up the next day hoping I can fuck care him like the way he did me...

Unfinished business... must still be finished one day.. the sooner the better...
WE must talk...

n then i can get my closure...

Meantime... I realised how important my frenz r to me...
You can be with them yet feel alone at the same time...
Its jus mere distraction from the current problem at hand...
But sharing takes the pressure away...

And when I come home in the dead of the nite n see a light on in my study room (my 2nd sis is a hardcore Maplestory gamer) I feel not so alone after all..

Maybe one day... sense will overtake me n help me decide wat's best for me...

Diary of an Imminent Breakup - Day 2

As the plane was descending into Sin n capt announced "Cabin Crew to landing stations"
I heaved a sigh of relief like I always do before taking my seat....

But this morning... a split second after my token sigh... I felt a strange sinking feeling at the same time...

Sighhh....
I'm going back into the world of Phone Reception....
Where I would switch on my phone n hope to hear from him....
And be disappointed if I dun....
And be neurotic-crazy again bout wat happened to him...

"Did he go home at all?"
"Or was he with someone else? can't be.. he so tired after work.."
"maybe he brought her home.... maybe he always had someone... n they went home for hot sex n he forgot bout texting me.."

Oh god...

Stupid as hell right>??

For the first time in my flying career... I din wanna touch down...
I felt like staying up there getting abused by pax was prob the safest place I can be...

Then I can't text him or wait for his text....
It was like in the old days at Dome... was trying to dump this guy n it was so much easier cos all I had to do was to leave my phone in the locker all day....

But I did realise that I seem to put more heart into work cos I desperately try to get the pain n anguish outta my mind....
Everytime things slow down... the pain comes again...

I havent slept since 4pm yesterday,,,
I got home at 8am n couldnt take it n called him to ask why... (I cant take suspense)
his response?

Something totally innocent that I have to forgive....
He fell asleep cos he was so tired...

:"But u said u still wanna make things work n all I ask for from u is Communication...
I dun need off days with me or long phone calls... jus that stolen min to send me a text...adding up to few stolen mins a day outta yr busy schedule... jus to let me hear from u.. reassure me that u still care bout me.. love me... think of me... is it so hard???"

I cried... dunno out of relief for finally being able to hear his voice or just thankful that he picked up...

I can never sleep well not hearing from him... n he knows that...

And my heart dropped when he said "Can I go back to sleep now cos I need to get up in 3 hours?" ... when I was weeping tears of relief n anguish...

Am I pathetic or damn pathetic???

Why do I allow myself to be treated like that??
I is Dodo Chin lei... sigh... ;_(

I making myself damn tired so I can jus drop dead on bed... dun wanna lie there n think think think rubbish then call n text on impulse anymore...

I think I will jus.... Disappear......
I can't wait for my next flight... the longer the flight time the better....cos I can jus... Disappear.....

Diary of an Imminent Breakup - Day1

Cigarettes smoked: 15 or something...

Damage: 1 big blob of a bruise on the side of right wrist n bump on ball of right foot from kicking n punching an unlucky big tree...

Funny...
One would have thought that I wanted this, expected this...
But am actually not mentally prepped for it...

That's the scary thing bout getting into a relationship....
the getting out of it...

He has not replied to my messages like he would normally...
And attributed it to his busy busy at work... which i totally understand...
But he usually still texts me...

I think he has come to a point where he needs time out to evaluate the relationship too...
Think whether i'm the girl for him...

Yes, I'm the girl who has some complicated thoughts in her mind...
I go crazy with my vivid imagination n the dozen "what if"s in my head...

I think the moment of truth has come....
The boy has stopped loving me...

Usually at this point I'd be going crazy bombing his phone with incessant messages demanding closure n answers to my questions...

Strangely though... I found peace within myself last nite when I arrived in Perth...
Why force someone who doesn't like to speak... to speak??

the dozen questions whirling round n round in my head threatens to explode...
I start hearing self doubts n mistrust creeping in n voices annoying me n telling me he's up to no good...
"That lil girl who's been flirting with him has gotten him??"
"that text which just came in... was it really bout work??"
"He din come home til 10 that morning n din pick up his phone was cos....."

Pls dun misunderstand...
I'm neurotic n insecure in my own ways...
But have never allowed myself to sink to such pathetic levels of being afraid of losing my guy to another girl....

Never... til he came in...

This is the first time a guy has wanted to b alone, away from me to go drink...
the first time I waited up til 8am on few mornings to hear from him....
the first time I forgive a boy bout some serious evil things he had done to me...

N still want to love him...


I think the time has come to seriously prep myself for an impending disastrous break off...
I owe it to myself n to him...

By disastrous i dun mean kicking n screaming kind of break off...
at least the noisy shout it out kind gives each a chance to thrash things out...
get closure...
get a chance to hate the person...

Disastrous is the kind where the person disappears from u n refuses to see u, say they will call u back but never does n leave u staying by the phone side til u go nuts...

Disastrous is the kind that they say they love u still but they r tired of trying anymore...

Disastrous is the kind where the questions of "why do u do this to me" goes unanswered despite desperate pleas...

Disastrous is the kind where u go out n drink n smoke n the pain never goes away....
The kind where u imagine the other person going out to drink n smoke n laugh n is actually able to displace u outta his mind....

Disastrous is the kind where u will take a total number of everyday u been together or more to get over him...
that makes 10 months for me....
... before u feel brave enough to feel normal again...

it is also the kind where u imagine him getting into another relationship; rebound or not, soon after u r off....

It has happened before... n the pain is crippling...

Disastrous is the kind where u r hungry but can't eat... tired but can't sleep... smoke til you can't smoke... n everything else in yr life seems to transform into a limbo...

It's the kind where the emptiness from yr heart drops to the bottom of yr stomach n then floats up to yr guts n stays there, threatening to make u throw up....
And it happens whenever you reminisce on yr happy times together...
Like when I remove my nail polish n replay how he used to do it for me in my head...

And that's just Day 1... ; ]

Good god why did I allow myself to fall in love in the first place...

Whoop to 2007!! ;D

How has the 5th day of the New Year treated you???

:)

I kickstarted off mine w a visit to some "Sinseh" for my persistent backache.....

But am suffering a different kind of back pain now cos of MENstrual cramps...
(see... a problem which starts w MEN...) ;D

eee.. so corny... ptui*

Anyhoo... I was brought to Crazy Horse for dinner n show on NYE...

I was so excited....
Good Food n Naked Chio Girls to start my New Year!!
WAt a way to go!!!! whoop!

The show was a BLAST!!

Crazy Horse's L'art du Nude (Art of the Nude) have been viewed by many celebs n politicians n blah blah people n is direct from Paris...

And it's like here.... in bloody-small-like-pee-sai Singapore...

Showcasing 15 leading ladies w names like Lady Pousse Pousse, Fasty Wizz, Rita Casablanca, Ixo Excess.. it doesn't get more erotic n sensual as u'd expect....

However, if you're expecting like all boobies n trash n porn... then you'll be disappointed lor...
The girls' bodies are Hot no less...
And I read in Her World mag some time back that their bodies not only have to be well endowed...
But have to be of certain proportion only...

The length of their thighs, arms, height of their butts, distance of the nipples from shoulders, length of torsos etc must be uniform lor!!

This is so becos the show is all about the lights n the effect of lights on their bare skin...

With the combi of the French tracks they dance to...
The show is divine... n a must-watch for all....

Really really.... EVERYONE MUST WATCH at least once!!!!

No photos allowed obviously so I stunned some pics off the net...

The first track "God save our Bareskin"

That's when I noticed that their bums are really all the same height one!!!!

so are their nipples... all on the same line though some boobies big n slightly saggy n some smaller like B cup!!!

If I remember correctly...
From the 2nd track: "Attitude"

Pretty........
Very very pretty...

The show of lights were starting to impress me...
Take my attention off the very distracting boobies n some very nice asses... ;D

Lecon d'Erotisme

Whoooo.... so inspire me to wanna take up Erotic dance classes...
However.. our girl serenading the fat lip on stage far more pretty n sexy than the one in this pic...

Whhooooo the way she humps, slides up n down n curl herself round the fat lip... makes one wanna be the fat lip...

But I just wanna be her!!!! ;D

Chair me up

Can't remember much...
maybe I was struggling to keep my peepers open...
Not cos I was bored!! Jus cos I been up since 5 am for flight!!!!!

One of the last few tracks...

Noticed that they always put the big boobied girls on the edge...
Big to small... gradual from side to centre...
Muahahaha~..

Yes.. I'm boobie obsessed!!!

But guess my fave track would be the "Champagne Taste"...

~~"my champagne taste for yr beer bottle pocket..."~~

For all the high maintenance girls out there!!! :P
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While the show is like SOOooooooo damn good...
the food only so so...

I expected good rich-til-yr-arteries-clog French food...
Maybe a hint of foie gras.....
okie... dun expect much...
just a dot of it also shiok....

hmmmmm....

Well... dun ever go to Le Rouge (the in house restaurant inside Crazy Horse) if u even thinking of it la....

it's really small...(pics can really b deceiving... the place looked so lush n spacious n romantic)
So the tables all so close together...
The lighting a tad too bright...

the wait staff are efficient but just lacking finesse to complement the nice velvety lush fittings in the restaurant.. so robotic n expressionless...

Maybe cos I was seated right in front of the kitchen...
the hustle n bustle of the going-ons behind me was really distracting n noisy...

Not to mention to The Boyfriend as well... who has an annoying habit of sizing up service standards in his head n therefore making any decent conversation impossible...

I mean... wat's dressing up for a nice dinner for when the man's eyes are not glued to you?
Wat's a nice dinner without stimulating conversation???

Dinners w wine n the whole she-bang are supposed to be mental foreplay...
Intended but with no obvious intention...

Guys... pls take note...
Conversation doesn't have to naughty...
Just intelligent...
All the time keeping eye contact..... or give her appreciative looks....
Compliments also v. v. v. important!!!
Make her feel like she's the only person worth looking at in the whole room...
Make her laugh n giggle n blush n engage her n bedplay later on would b so much more rewarding for you....

Ah well.... -__-~ sighhh..

Besides the less than impressive setting in Le Rouge...
The food is portioned for Thumbelina sized pixies or something I think...

5 courses of miniscule sized platters

I freaking understand if the hors'deouvs (can't remember how to spell la) or the pre hors'deouvs are small.....

But the freaking main as well...

my lamb loin could be lamb-flavoured human middle finger for all i care. no kidding.

my dessert is bigger than my main...

Taste n flavour is okie.. above average...
But lack the richness of French food.. (if it's wat they intend to do.. It's in an establishment called Crazy Horse PARIS anyway)

Whichever way it is.... if small is the way to go it HAS to be rich!!!!

BAH!

Thank god they have Lady Pousse Pousse n her posse....
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Okie okie... enough said of the good, the bad n the boobies...

My New Year @ Zouk!!!
W Danny Tenaglia no less!!

I'm blushing cos Kool Kat is kissing me...~

Gwen was going crazy...
Shouting "HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!" n forcing people to drink like every 3mins... ;D

Gwen n Al playing 5-5 game

Only use one hand n can only say 5...
Wah lan... that's a 25-50% probability of drinking ain't it?

Super intense game going...

Al thirsty la....
See Gwen force people to drink again...

A moment w The Boyfriend...
Whose distracted stance was forgiven cos he braved the Zouk crowd whom I know he hates..

Me n my bright blue clapper makin' some noise!!

How did the nite end?
Well... Gwen got drunk n was sent home by the rest....
They had to leave while I was queuing for the impossibly long toilet Q...

Ray n I dropped by Penny to wish his staff Happy '07...
Wanted to go MOS to join more of his staff but dun wanna Q n pay entry n it was already 3 plus....

Got home n managed some sleep by 5...

Thank GOd I drove cos it's impossible to get a cab...
I could be roaming the streets n walking miles in my blistering Steve Maddens if I didn't too...

All these when I gotta wake at 9 the next morning for a KL 4 sec..

Yes... I went to KL TWICE!!! on the 1st day of the new year....

Ah.. the glamourous side of my life... ;D

WEll.. once again... HAPPY NU YEARRrrrrrRRrr!!!
May every one grow bigger boobies!!!

*hugS n kisseeeesss*