I'm Afraid...

I just read Flozy's blog again...
Bout her grandaunt who has stomach cancer...

The last time I blogged bout grandma's condition was here...
The decision then was not to let grandma go thru chemo cos she so old le...
N also not to remove her stomach cos it's a terribly risky procedure for a person her age..

I remember how angry I was when I discovered that another loved one had cancer...

Anyway, my aunt n mum did not want Grandma to be in pain or to suffer that way n die anyway...
So we put her thru TCM n lotsa lingzhi which actually stopped the internal bleeding n sustained her til recently...

it's been nearly 20 months since the discovery of the cancer...
Only recently granny has been complaining of pain n bloat in her stomach n loss of appetite cos the cancer in her stomach seems to b inhibiting the disgestive system...

I'm thankful that it has been painless thus far...
I'm so afraid...

That she would be in great great pain in the final stage...

Grandma has always been a strong woman with a super high threshold level for pain...
Then if she says pain... it must b fucking pain..

Grandma who grew up without parents in China n had to fend for herself n a younger brother since she was 6..
Grandma who cooks the bestest chicken rice n chicken rice chilli...
Grandma who is my favourite old person...
Grandma who so dotes on me cos I was her first grandchild...
Grandma who has such soft wrinkly skin on her arms n elbows that is so comforting to hold..
Grandma who listens to me chitter chatter though I know so little Hainanese..
Grandma who used to play games with the little me when she was cooking...
Grandma who is so damn brave to take the Space Mountain with me (twice!) 10 yrs ago at Disneyland when all my cousins backed out on me...n not even blink...she said it wasn't scary... ; ]
Grandma who pretends to swat me away when I steal her yummy mushrooms when she wrapping bak changs... (since then she has stopped wrapping bak changs...)
Grandma whom I wish will get to see my first child... n have my children have such a perfect great-grandma...

I'm so scared now..

Is there a way she can go when the time comes without having to suffer that insane amount of pain or discomfort??

Can someone please tell me??

:_(

*cry*

Diaries of a 74M Crew: I Saw The RED Moon!!!

Yes... here I am again in AKL...
For the fourth time this month it seems... right after my Bkk vacation...

Today.. I almost killed a pax when I helped open an overhead compartment upon landing n a bottle of liquor came clumbering down on the old lady's head....

Nabei...~

It was completely an accident lor...
Worse when we found out she was a slightly slow handicapped old lady n when she said she felt slightly dizzy...

Not helping when my complex leader kept harping on the incident throughout cos he scared he get into trouble by covering for me in his report...

CBei...~

It's not even my aisle...

I was jus gonna collect my wheelchair pax (speaking of which, I tot I was doing a hkg-sfo flight.. cos we had freakin 10 wheelchair neh nehs who r all totally capable of walking one lor...)
N I saw them standing there waiting n I tot they needed help...
So in typical Xsk-Q super helpful crew culture, I stepped forward n flipped the compartment open...

then... *bing, pong, piang*
Shit!

SIgh......~~ ^>sway sway sway<^ ; (


I jus hope the ole lady's fine, no concussion or watever lor...

On a lighter note... I'm getting used to this 74M thingy...

I see familiar faces amongst the crew as I do more flights...
I made new frenz who r fun to hang out with in boring AKL..
I did this flight w my batch girl whom I haven't see since we grad from Fly School 3.5 yrs back...

N I made frenz with the hotel staff; from the dude who drives the shuttle bus to n fro town, the Korean duty free dude who sells me Manuka Honey, n today some random maintenance guy who brought me thru restricted zones within Langham Hotel to the rooftop to catch the lunar eclipse.

Coolness... The moon was red!!!!

On the 15th day of the lunar calendar on the 7th month (Hungry Ghosts' Festival) somemore

I did some research on the net after... cos the Dodo dun read newspapers one lor...
N found that this is the second lunar eclipse this year... the first in March... the next one will happen in Feb 2008...

If you wanna know why it happens... I snitched this off the Infographic webbie so u can become enriched with random snippets of rubbish info like me... ;D

Click to enlarge n read what's on it...

Completely random...
I was standing at the lift lobby after dropping off a DVD at my boss' room when I heard drilling dunno coming from where...
The maintenance guy then asked me while drilling in his air purifier if I would like to see the eclipse from the rooftop... (restricted to regular hotel guests of cos)...

hmmm.... :)

Well.. so that's my first glimpse of a red moon...
Dunno if u guys in Sin r able to see it cos the info din say the GMT(wat's 3am PT?? simi si PT? I only know GMT!?) when reporting times but the map above did show try dusk around S.E.A area lei...

I suddenly imagine my Whiskey howling at it... hee hee~ ;p
I miss my doggie...

Speaking of which.. my baobei' got a haircut again last week...

Brought him to DogCare at Mt Pleasant again...
Where they gave him a neat crew cut n clean butt shave...
They even added a bandana!!!!!
Apparently girl dogs get ribbons...
Cuteness~ ;D

My bao bei bouncing around feeling lighter after much needed hair loss...
I know how he must feel...

Cos the day b4 I got a much needed haircut myself!! (the last being in April)
N I felt immediate relief on my neck as my head felt lighter...
So...... ~Ahhhhhhhhh~ shiok feeling...

hehehehehe~

I'm feeling warm n fuzzy on this red moon nite...
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UPDATES!! (2126hrs ,GMT +8)

Pic sent to me by Dan from Sydney....
Of the red moon!
Happened 1920-2020 hrs (GMT +10) outside Dan's apartment window...

hehe~

Sweet forbidden kisses...

A close guy friend of mine confided in me recently...

"I had a close fren over to mine.. we ate , drank.. talked... n she got really drunk... we started kissing in bed.. she din know wat she was doing. When we woke the next morning... she asked me if anything happened cos it felt real... I said 'No', wat is wrong with me man??"


Me to him... "Hmmm... maybe u dun like her at all lor.."

Yar... wat i mean is... if my fren was attached... or if she was... or if in anyway the kiss was not supposed to be... it would feel so much more........ Magnetic...~

Cos anything forbidden is aways softer... always sweeter.. sometimes heart wrenching if it's w someone u had n would always love...n always something one remembers...

Agree?? ;p

"Seeing you made me think,
Oh what would we have been...

Touching you made me feel,
How much I have been missing you....
Do you too?

Feeling what I think you feel too,
I wonder,
So why did you?

Kissing you roused the dead soul in me...
Why wasn't it always so soft?
Or... was it just me...?"


To all who have had tasted sweet forbidden kisses...
The ones which kept you awake all night, longing for more...
Though u kinda know.. if they belonged to you forever... it won't always be that soft n... sweet...

I'm off to Bkk for my much needed vacation..
Flymate got me roster n texted me "Finally..... yr leave has come!.. any exotic hol!?"
Heee....

Im on leave, Im on leave!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
N i dun wanna think bout my lousy akl flight rite after next Mon! ;D

Sun Set le...

Was devouring my microwaved fried rice in me room when I decided to hop over to Flozy's for a look...

Eeeeks...

Not cos of Flozy lar..
She my friend...

But of some controversial supposedly(acclaimed) public figure that i absolutely abhor lor..

I din even know the 37 year OLD , mother of One (dunno if got anymore, dun think so cos i think she will kill them so she can stay slim for fame like in the MTV arghz~) ex-pastor is still paying $$ to influential people to make her famous lor.

I pity the people who go to church n pledge like.. 20% of their life savings or pay every month...
Their donations not only goes to providing the super BORING n OUT OF POINT sun with a pseudo celebrity career....
But also to buy their pastor's wife into fame...

I dunno if this will create a backlash.. me blogging bout this...

But as a non christian common folk (who was schooled in christian surroundings mind you), I think Sun Ho or The Geisha or watever shitty cool pseudonyms she has chosen to give herself is DISGUSTING.

I think its disgusting that she's so enterprising...
when a former roomie at uni n school mate had to go queue up at The Heeren when she made an appearance... 'to show support' she says...

I think it's fucking disgusting she dresses the way she does.... (when she is supposed to be a woman of God ...n wife of a pastor for Christ's sake! oops!) at 30 plus yr old n with 1 child...

I think it's fucking disgusting how she makes her lame-ass albums...
I seriously think only her followers at her church buy them...
FOR WAT?!? None of the tracks got any God-thingy thingy inside wat?!?!?!
not like it's Christian albums or wat?!

I think it's fucking disgusting how she opens up those Ed Hardy n True Religion jeans store n call them Skin...
Cos it's so superficial...
Not the brands... but the way she markets them n retails them...
eeeeyur...

N I think she is unbelievably anorexic in her MTV n sooo sooo wannnaaaa-be... it's vomit-inducing...

Yeah.. china wine.. the smell of the chinese "huang jiu" that my grandfather loves is indeed vomit inducing...

N though i love Wyclef Jean... I'm so ... ... *shudder*... i think i lost respect for him as a music artiste le...

I would have been happy to know that she has finally stop trying... realising that she will never EVER get famous one lor!

Cos like seriously... WAt's her Point???
That 37 yr old mummies can still try to make it big???
Oh.. nononono...

That money can buy you the best?? (that's not wat the pastor used to preach to us when we attended Chapel every Monday at school!!) ;o *gasps*

Or that with GOd's Will... anything is possible???

COme on... cut the crap lor Sun Ho...
dun make Christianity look more superficial than it seems already to some people...

I can live with the fact that you tried n couldn't make it........
But dun try so hard...
It's.... REVOLTING... like flozy says....
Excuse me while i get the sun outta my system...

Rom Coms still I like!

Another long n draggy evening in Akl...
Wat do I do??

Have dinner... Go to bottle shop at the bottom of the hill get a subtle bottle of white... n cosy up with a DVD...

For tonight's delight... it's..

Aishwarya Rai's Mistress of Spices...

Verdict??
Hmmm..
Feel good... Bittersweet... n it makes one feel that it is indeed possible to have the best of both world's... n most importantly... to foster positive thoughts in thy head... a Happy Ending...

;D

Most importantly... I adore Ms Rai at the end of the movie..
After all this is the first movie of the prev Ms World's I've watched..
I've always thought she was super pretty n hot lar...
But I tot she was really endearing in the movie...

Whether as a Rapunzel-like princess trapped within her shop..
Unable to live n love like regular common folks...

Or a girl who is trying to deny her might-be destiny...
Cos a Mistress of Spices cannot be distracted by her own desires...

To the regular hot blooded woman who gave in to her desires n decides to risk it for one nite...

How much of ourselves do we see in her character??? ;D
That you want something so bad... yet u still wanna keep the other...
You tell yourself.... "Just this once..."
Knowing damn well you'll lose it once you've tried it...
Even though it's just that.... Once..

Yum~

Thought the ending was so-so lar...
it was the motion soundtrack that kept me happy...

The title soundtrack is like a Hed Kandi-R'n'b-Rishi Rich-Gregorian mish mash...
Actually turning out quite alright..

Not only that...
The movie made all things Indian so cool...
Esp the indian root in the art of spices...

heh heh~
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Hokie.. I just spent NZD29.95 on internet connection from my room to bring this to you...
SO you better watch it n like it...
or at least get the soundtrack...

I gonna go trawl the net...
toodooloos~

Something to Break the Monotony...

Righty... I realised I have just been talking talking bitching bitching these days...

So some photos to break the monotony...
When I started blogging I brought my camera around with me everywhere I went lar...
To capture moments to (bitch) about... ahahaha~
But been lazy these days..

Anyway.. I met the girls on Wed nite for drinks at Que Pasa..

The chio-est pic la! ;D

Past vs Present

The "could-be-sisters-in-laws"!! wahahaha~

yippeee!
Always sit near the WC when drinking... for easy access..
WAhahaha~ Very annoyed!! cos every pic got that WC sign!!! ;p

We had unusually lots to talk bout that nite somehow...
Conversation runs dry on normal meet ups after exchanging anecdotes on Dragon Lady n Tiger Woman...
But the man-bashing today was endless...

Seriously.. when u put girls together rite... they will bitch bout everything men do I think...

Imagine... if we all got married n were all sisters-in-laws....
Family outings n picnics would be totally awesome lor...

Then Ms Von came along n broke the rhythm by making her classic one-liners

Ah... finally we r able to meet up... i missed her!
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Hmmm.. another visit to Pawtobello...

I brought the bf who wanted to bring the love-of-his-life there...

Doggie madhouse...

It was Chubs' 2nd bday!!
Super sociable doggy he is..

Very much the rogue doggy too..
Besides chasing girly dogs n humping them non stop... he peed like more than 10 times in the cafe itself, when the other doggies hardly did so lar!
Sighhhhh... I was kinda exasperated...
Am I just being uptight???

Throughout dinner, the bf n I were unable to have any hint of a conversation...
So much for quality time spent together...

I realised suddenly how disgusting n tiring it is to have to take care of disobedient children...

Oh wells...

At least I spied...

Ginger!!!
Another 5 yr old Goldie who's a regular..
He's super brown...

Plus super nice glossy fur!!
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Talking to Dan bout being in a rship on msn as I blog..

I realised I need someone who lets me have my way in the relationship...
Someone willing to make sacrifices n not make me feel guilty bout it...
Someone who doesn't find me the least bit demanding... but tells me... I deserve to be...

Most importantly, someone who I dun have to negotiate with... cos negotiating is tiring...
Yes.. so rships are all bout compromising...
Yet sometimes I think couples won't have to compromise if they r crazily enough in love with each other..

A True Blue Spartan

I fell sick again.... ;(

SIgh...

I was supposed to do a London yesterday nite...
N i came down with some weird bug that kept me feverish for 48 hours while in the midst of a Jakarta turn...

After a 2nd visit to the doc.. the conclusion was that I had over active tonsils... resulting in tonsillitis...
Must be the bags of crisps I consume cos of the yucky food onboard both AKL flights I jus came back from...

Over active tonsils??
I imagine the antibacterial guys in my throat to be all suited up in their combat armour n getting into a frenzy whenever I consume too much crisps or spicy food or smoke too many ciggies....
Argh~


I was looking forward to London...
I wanted to load up on Maharishi n H&M again...
I haven't shopped like.... in 3 months le..... ;_(

But the last straw came when I was still feverish n having a migraine ard 6-ish in the evening...
2 more days of MC...

Adding up to 11 days this year le... like ;O
It's really like something you can't stop once u start...
Think I will be expecting a letter from my Ward Leader soon, asking me wat is wrong with me lately...

Can I say it's cos of the AKL flights I do n how there is never food for me to eat cos they serve beef on both meals for both sectors n they always have the beef left only???

N guess wat???
FOr my standby the subsequent days due to the MC...
I'm doing AKL again..

That makes it my fucking 3rd-in-a-row.... Cb~
Oh wells.....

That's the story of my boring life...
fly fly on weekends n come back on weekdays...
Sibeh sian~

Time for a vacation...

I realised hor.. that I been working working working the entire year.......
My last holiday was one to Bkk on my birthday week...
That's wayyyyyy back in the first week of March...

Think I need another......
*Gasp for air*...

; )

When People play the Crying Game..

I jus wonder...

There r people who make you cry...
And also those you make cry...

But when u r crying yourself to sleep on awfully lonely nites... nursing that beer/wine/vodka neat..
Do u think of those who r crying cos of you???

I think damn well not....
Cos I dun...

hee hee hee...

Ah well...
Me is just amazed at how u can find exactly wat u'd like to find on the great www.

I think Google is the best invention by Man thus far....

So what's the longest you have taken to get over that special someone?
The One who got away???

I think 2 years is a long long time to do so...
But only cos he had set the standards... n only cos I was young n dumb...

Are we all too old to play that Crying Game??

For the Lurve of doGs...

Sob sob~
I miss my doggie terribly..... ;(

It's hard not to get attached to a creature with seemingly similar moods to meself....
He has been pensive n sad since The Rif n his caretaker left....

So I brought him out last Thursday... n spent some quality time with him...


Nice n quiet it was along Robertson Walk....

We spotted some uber cute Japanese kids
She so looks like Strawberry Shortcake...

Lamb something something... w brown rice..

When our food both arrived at the same time...
He din quite dare to start eating before I did.... ;D
Until I said... "Makan makan. Dun your food smell nice???" n lifted my own fork to my mouth...

Argh... I cannot stand it that he's so obedient.... Cos I love him n miss him more!!!

Anyway... while he dog watched after his meal... I engrossed myself in a free doggy mag...

Cool...
Not only did I discover tt Whiskey was obscenely obese (can't feel his ribs, his spine, can't see no waistline like the mag said...), I think I also found my calling...

I'm gonna take up a professional dog grooming course!!!!!

I know!! Me?? Dogs?
I used to find their drool so gross lar!!

Eh.. but now I is getting my hands dirty with their poop n all k...

Yep... so I tore out the page n finally called today...
It's 220 hours broken up into 3 stages, Basic, Intermediate n Advanced n costs a total of $5300 incl. necessary equipment...
Thereafter I can set up a pet shop or watever if I desire...

Hmmm....
I'm not daring to think that far....
So I'm just gonna enroll for the Basic course at $1800 n 80 hours first.....
If I think that going pro is too hard for me... at least at the end of it I can save $$ on grooming my own dogs!! hee hee~

How how???
Wat do u think??
Im apprehensive cos I'm afraid i will give up halfway... n I DUN wanna give up halfway...hmmmm

SO I was daydreaming this afternoon right...
N I tot... "hey... Dog is God spelt backward lei!"
Yes.... I m sooo -____-"
So if I ever have my own doggie establishment... I would like to call it... "For the Love of doGs!"

wahahahahaha~

:'D

okieeeeee.........

Picture of Whiskey n Rocky playing at tennis courts when we got home...
Dun hate me for being lame...

My dog really fat...
Can't outrun a 5 yr old goldie lor...
Actually he's damn lazy.. n refuse to play w Rocky...

Looks like owner n dog might have to go jogging together to shed some fats...

Indulgence...

I haven't had the luxury of time to trawl the net as I used to for a long time...

As I sat in the bf's apartment awaiting the moment he walks thru the door so I can greet him with a wry smile n a wet smuak, I caught up on my reading....

FLozy's post on Indulgence caught my eye... :)

No babe.. for obvious hygiene reasons, we do NOT collect back the lil jam jars n refill them.. ;D

Come to think bout it...
Alot of food do get wasted on planes...
Carts n carts of snacks... Urns n tetrapacks of fresh juices.. Racks of unconsumed meals...
All gets thrown away..
Guess the rationale is that we can't afford getting sued by anyone for food poisoning can we?

And it's not just for the priority pax dearie...
True... we prob cater more choices, more variety for the priority pax...
But that does not mean we shortchange the coach class as well..

In marketing terms, we would call it, Market Segmentation lei...
Different customer profiles, different needs.

Most of the biz class pax r ... pple who travel on business.. like you..
Many on company's expense no less..
And I think what we provide is not much more impeccable service... Service is supposed to be impeccable in anyways...
But more of extended service...

N extended service can b in a form of better amentities provided.
The cost of a biz class tix is 3 times more than the cost of coach to my knowledge...
We have a strict upgrade policy to deter what we call "Try-ers" (people who give all sorts of reasons, sob stories, or even threaten us with complaints just to get an upgrade) n also to maintain exclusivity..

But as the old saying goes, "You get what you pay for".
So it's simple, the reason why something is costly is becos u get more. N the reason u r paying more is becos u will be expecting more... No?

For example, priority queues r for pple like u, biz pple who do not have time to while away in queues, pple who r not on holiday but travelling for work.
I see so many disheveled ones mugging in front of their lappies every spare second they have on a flight...clamping their lappies shut after many a reminder upon descend, not even having time to sleep a wink in their comfy Spacebeds... I dun think these pple would appreciate standing in queue for even 10 mins right?

(I used to be such a last min mugger when it came to projects n presentations in school that I totally understand the immense stress one lor.. ;D)

I have spoken to many on red-eye flights, where the short 5.5hr flight time from Sin to Shanghai is their only chance to sleep before a 40 hour race ahead upon touch down..

So it's not that their lives r more important than others...
Or that their time is more precious than others...

It's just... cos their needs are different... n cos they paid the price for their class of travel, we try to make them as comfy as possible n to cater to their needs mah.

Of cos there r wealthy pple who pay for comfort as well when they travel lar...
But the same principle applies...

N then there r the super wealthy, super celebrities n super elite who travel First Class....
Hmmm....
Well. I feel that arrogance is personal cos there r many super rich who r not super snobbish...
As for wastage, it's all the work of economics...

Though I must say... I really hate to see the huge pile of unread papers we offload from the aircraft at the end of a flight...
At the risk of sounding like a super "on" crew, I'm making a mental note to give out all extra papers to pax who did not get access when I have time on longer flights... ;p

hee hee~

Bitchin~

I'm taking my bitchiness to a higher level...

Watch me.

M loving it.

My job has taught me to be fake as hell...
But I do it only to faker people.

Yep. U will know who you r.

Bigger things in Life...

I went to visit a fellow flymate in the hospital yesterday...

I wasn't that close to her...
we only did 1 flight together... n exchanged numbers promising to go gay clubbing one day..
Since then... we have been exchanging rosters...
But it's been a year plus.... n we still havent met up for said clubbing lor...

If she did not text me to tell me she stopped flying for 2 mnths le... I won't know..

She had a total of 4 metal rods stuffed into her legs.... One of which had 3... *shudder*
One big scar at the hairline...
N recovering bruises...

No walking at all.... Jus bed ridden...

GOsh... the worst?
She lost her boyfriend of 9 years... who died 2 hours after being warded.. when she was still unconscious...

9 years lei!! She's the same age as me lor...

She plans to come back flying after at least 2 years though....

N I tot... thank god thats not me...
I wont complain bout flying le!!
Or bout my darling bf!!