i will wear my heart on my sleeve...

so this will be the post where i wear my heart on my sleeve...
emo or not... dun remind me when u see me...

i will laugh out loud n make dirty jokes when u see me at zouk.
i will gamely drink half a jug with u.
but i will be tt bitch who is still looking out for something...
while looking out for yr fren with you.

i will say im okie even when im stumbling.
i will thumbs up to u even when i wanna go home.
n i will tell u i dun wan a lift n im okie to take a cab home.

n then when im home...
i will cry n wonder why the hell did i let the andys n arrifs n muscles run away from me.
in chronological order.
why the hell i let them go n for watever reasons.

why at tt moments in my life they were not enough for me n why i regret later.
dun ask me..
dun tell me
dun say anything.
cos really
i dun Fucking know.