In love with self torture n mental knots...

Sometimes a knot forms in my head.
N the answer i do know yet i play around with the kinks..
Twirling n fiddling and playing with the problem
Until a bigger n more complicated knot forms into a deadlock...

Sometimes the knot forms n i think that it will go away on its own cos it ain't seem so serious then..
But then another kink comes along unexpectedly n i'm caught off guard...
N these r the serious ones cos i did not expect a problem in the first place

Wat happens when the problem comes back to haunt u...
In yr dreams n yr sleep...
In that half slumber state when u suddenly wake in the middle of the night.
In yr head the first thing when u wake.

Wat happens when yr mouth can't stop talking bout it...
Yet talking bout it never answers the question...
Never gets the answer tt reaffirms the one you already know.
Even when the reaffirmation comes up... u refuse to accept it.

How how how!??!
The answer i already know is this.... n i've got no choice but to accept it.
I know that it will fade away with time. Cos tt's just the way things like these work.
It will be like... when i wake up one day n i can't remember the vivid details no more.
Not think of the vivid details fondly....
N it will jus be a part of a forgotten adventure....

Well i hope i'm right.
N another knot will not unexpectedly pop up again. Else i will sure b at a loss.
i'm gonna take a bold first step to eradicate this first knot. N by eradicating... i literally mean deleting.
I'm such a wuss when it comes to stuff like these.
I can't stand how my mind processes things. N tt's leaving my heart outta it still.
ARGgggggGghhhHHhhhhh~